what? how? why?

I don`t know how you do it, i don`t know why you make me feel the way I feel, i just don`t know. I know only one thing, that i`m still in love woth you and i want you so badly. I love talking to you. You always make me smile. We talk about random things, totally pointless thing, but when i talk to you, everything has a meaning, everything is perfect just the way things are. Love that about you. I love myself when i`m with you, when i talk to you. You make me feel beautiful and funny and perfect. I want that what we had. Simple, fun and perfect. Nothing complicated. Just simple.

The way i feel about you is as normal as trees have leaves, or how winnie pooh loves honey, or how scary movies are perfect only then, if you can snuggle up to someone.

I have never felt anything like that, so i know, that it hurts even more, to let go, than ever before. It`s so damn hard. And my heart is into a million pieces right now. Living with a knowledge that you have chosen someone else over me, hurts like hell. But that`s life... And the saying i`m happy if i see you happy or something like that, that`s a load of BULL! I`m not happy, until i find someone else, and i get over you.

I know that i love you, but let me just tell you, i don`t wanna love you in no kind of way!

I´m not supposed to love you,

I`m not supposed to care,

I`m not supposed to live my life

wishing you were there..

I`m not supposed to wonder where

you are or what you do..

I`m sorry, I can`t help it cause I´m in love with you!